Under God's Patronage

when i feel so desperate, when i feel so confuse and sad because of my problem, i always come to that place.

at the top of my house, i found my little heaven that always provide me with peace.

and that time i understand, when there's no way out, nothing i can do beside pray to you, GOD

a place called "sanggah"

everyday, except in my period, i come to "sanggah" a place for praying in every house of hindu's peoples. well, my parents and my sisters pray everyday, it influence me until it become a habit, and i think most of peoples do the same. so it just a common thing to go to the "sanggah" almost everyday.

i don't really remember when i started that thing. well, i don't know what it should called. Talk to God maybe? haha, i did that when i have a problem. when those times come, i will go to "sanggah" and sit under "rong tiga". i started to talked to God. i tell him about my problem, sometimes i cry too. i just talked and beg him for his solution. i belief God hears me. because my problem will always solved. 

i remember when i've got 4 in my "raport" for history subject. i feel really sad, but i didn't show it to other. i pretended to be okay in front of my family, while honestly i feel messed. and then finally my father comes to school and voila... that's just a mistakes. 

when i'm at senior high school, i don't know which faculty i should take for the university. i came again to "sanggah" and talked to God once more. now, i can see my own self study at pharmacy faculty, and up until now, i never regret it at all.

i know that i can always talk to my family, or my friends. but there're somethings that i don't want to shared to them. maybe because that's too personal, or i think that will only burden them with my problems. that time, i only have God to talked to. he's not talk back to me directly. but whatever it is, i can feel peace only by talk to my quite"sanggah", i can feel that God hears me, and everythings gonna be okay. i belief that and it comfort me a lot. thanks God :) for always here, beside me, no matter what happen.