about DREAM

So here i am again. Thinking again. Writing again. It’s been a while right? I’m too busy with my report, pretest and so on, so i always feel too tired to write. So what will i write about? Honestly it just a random things. I want to write about what i’ve thinking since a little time ago. About dream.

Dream is what you imagine you achieve, what you always want, what you chase for, the reason you fighting up until now. Well, that just a definition of mine. If you have yours, it doesn’t matter. Hehe.. now if i’m thinking again, seems like my dream change, time through time. When i was child, about 8 years, i ever say to my mom that i wanna be a seller. So that way, i can eat all the product i sell. (what a naive thought!! ;) ) I ever want to be a comicus just because my sister said i could be one, and then when i was on elementary school, i wanna be a veterinary. Why? Because i like dog. Animal is really cute. While anyone else wants to be doctor, i don’t want to. I can’t bear see people hurt. It hurt me as well. So, in purpose still looked cool, but stay comfort i choose to be a doctor for animal.

After that in junior high school i wanna be a fashion designer. Maybe it is influence from my mom whom a dress  maker. Since i was child i like to draw clothes, unfortunately i don’t really like to make one. Just design it, without ever make it into a real clothes. I remember that i have a book of my sketch which i don’t know where it is now. I ever want to send my design into magazine, but i never do. Hahaha, how silly i am. I make bag sometimes, but it really depends on my mood. And if you ask me now to draw a cloth, then i can’t make it. I don’t know why. I just don’t ever think about it again, and never draw a single one again.

In senior high school i don’t really have a spesific dream. The only thing i thought was that i have to study in nice university, graduate with nice mark, and have a great job. Go to japan for master degree, marry shou chan( oh well, i know it stupid, but so what?), watch any live concert of bands that i like. 

Now after i study in Pharmacy Faculty, Gadjah Mada University, i reconsider things above. I don’t want to marry shou now( gyaha), but i still thinking of graduate with nice mark, have a great job and if i can, i want to have a master degree abroad( in japan of course!!). But now it become a problem, it doesn’t about “could I?” but more into “i’m not really try”.  I feel like, i just enjoy the things, do what in front of me. Still hold my dream but never move to get closer to them. If i thinking about it, i feel like “ how sad”.  i’ll try my best in this semester again. Hope that i can still have a nice mark like last semester. Maybe it the only thing i do that could slowly reach my dream FOR NOW, hahaha..

Beside that, a while ago i come to a boutique with my friend. that’s the beginning that makes me wants to write about dream here. Why? Because when i come in, i suddenly remember, my junior high school’s dream. I want to have a boutique too. But it honestly a cosmetic counter(fyi, i wanna be a cosmetic expert, but since i rarely wear make up, i’m shy to say this :P). I want to combine between being a pharmacist and having a boutique contain clothes, shoes, and accessory. How to make it? It becomes my question too. after graduate from master degree in japan, being a cosmetic expert, having this one, wow perfect!!

hahaha, maybe it’s a just silly dream. But after all, i want that. And nothing is impossible, right? Maybe after for a while my dream will change again, before i ever reach my dream now. Who knows?? I just want to live for what i really want to. Even if i can’t reach that( i hope i can!!), dream is still dream. It makes you looking forward. Do you think so??