let my emotion dominate me sometimes..

"i never realize that i really lonely, until i go to the crowd and feel alone at all"

so here i am, blabbering to everyone that i'm fine. i already move on. i don't really care about something called "romance". i'm not galau. and so on.. and so on.. am i lied? no i'm not. that's what i thought. that's what i  felt. that's what i knew. but suddenly, last night, i realize, maybe it's not the way it is.

i'm not saying that i'm still in a state obsessing something like that. i'm saying that even i don't really think about something called "romance", as a healthy young woman (woman?? hmm, is that a right word?) there's something in my heart that really miss that thing. when  i see everyone comes with their partner, come to Pura, while as always i came with my friends, i feel envy. i don't want to be hypocrite so let me say this, there's a voice inside my heart, that crying because it sad.. that hurt because it lonely.

pathetic? yes, i am.

so what? i'm just being normal. i just let my emotion dominate me sometimes. i'm not doing it everytime, right? right? fufufufu....