Family is..

It's just another rainy day in the middle of December. as the chilly air came approached my self, i took my blanket and covered my body. rain falls, but not heavily, so while i lied at my bed, i texted my friend and asked her to went out. we decided to go to a cafe.

that cafe was playing Beast's On the Rainy day exactly when i came in. my heart jumped for a while as i know that song, even though it's not my favourite one. i wanted to tell my friend that i know that song, but i held myself as i remember she's not even a k-pop fan. tell her will only make me get a weird look in the end. so i ordered hot French chocolate and my favourite cake ever, Opera cake then i just sat at the pluffy chair with a red pillow and enjoyed the wifi, ahh not enjoyed maybe, i used it to download material for the exams.

those time in that cafe we didn't even talk much as i focused at my gadget and she focused at the magazine. well if i have to say we didn't have a meaningful conversation, then i lied, she asked me about my plan for the future.. my answer? i won't tell it here. it's a plan which only my friends and family know.. how about hers? i won't tell it here. it's not appropriate to spill another's plan too. so i'm sorry if i will only talk about my own self, i don't like the idea of me telling other's stories when i don't ask their permission first.. ahh just let me resumed my story..

chocolates which i consumed gradually made me fed up, it was too much so we decided to go to another place to eat (i mean actual food, not snack kekeke) and that was how our serious conversation began..

at that place we ordered some food and as we waited i talked about how i can't really organize my finance. as a girl who grow up thanks to my mom's business (which my dad have a big help in it too. i love you dad, i never thought your role is small at all) i have a mindset that i have to be able to take care of my own self in the future (i mean financially) and not to only depended to my husband . my parents make me go to a good college and of course i want to give something back to them and the other way is to be able to live well. but, as i think about it, i started to worry since as i said before, i'm not good at handling my finance. i saw my mom and honestly really amazed about how she had handled our family's finance.. she didn't even learn about management (which i ever learn ) but she know how to divide the money, how to saved it and how to spend it well..  i talked about some difficult time in my life, i talked about how i want to manage my self well too. so many "future talk" we had that night. but in the end what i can say is, maybe we can learn about it as the time pass by. maybe the condition will lead us to "ready or not" manage it well.

that moment too, i realize, everyone learn from their family. i see bad and good things in my family. i think about which one i should follow and which one i should not follow. in the end, our root is our family. in the end, we will reflect everything at our own family. after talked to her, those are my conclusion..

the night became colder, as i felt so full, me and my friend decided to go back home. i still thinked about my family on the way home. really, as i watched too many idol's variety show, i know that a lot of idols really love their family and do everything to make their parents proud. this post maybe structurally bad, it has no focus, but what i really want to say is, i realized that night, how big "family impact" is.

mom, dad, sisters and brother, thank you for make me learn a lot of  things in this life. i'll be a better person.. i promise.